I'm sorry for my lack of blogging recently. I've been too busy being on the street to write about it. So having gotten backed up this far, I can't give a play by play of the days.
I have been "lacking in zeal" (Romans 12) recently, in many things, including my attitude on the street. It's strange how days can all be so different, different people and stories, but all start to sound the same and feel the same. So I've been impatient and maybe even a bit calloused. Some great things have been going on. Jimmy has an ID and is finally going into a program, other people seem to be making progress. But at the same time others have disappointed me. Some one who told me they were going to change something that they finally recognized as a problem, an hour later was doing that very thing. Another guy that I talk to most every time I go to the lot, was a bit drunk the one day. When Lauren said she would see him another time, he said he hoped not. In fact he hoped she never came back. This hurts, all of us. What are we doing if people we spend time with daily want no part with us? But today he said he was happy to see us. He also tagged on that he loves us. I'm not naive enough to think that he will always be happy to see us, or that we mean as much to him as he does to us, but even if that was just an off hand comment it still meant something to me.
Today was the first day with 2 new mission teams. It was hot and humid and even rained on us a bit. Still the groups were great about it, getting out and talking to people. There weren't very many people around at the bottom of the lot, when we first arrived, but I had this group following me so I looked around and went up to someone. He looked vaguely familiar but I never would have remembered his name. He didn't remember my name but clearly remembered seeing me around and talking to me. He was so sweet and asked us to pray for his Uncle.
We walked up to the top of the lot, and it really was just like meeting up with old friends. Cody, Will, Mike, Robert and some others all up there; some greeting me by name and a sweaty side hug, others with a smile or handshake. Even though I couldn't talk to them long because I was mostly concerned with watching the students, it encouraged me. It was just another one of those glimpses--ahh, this is what community is.
We did a bunch more walking and I did get to meet some new people. The groups met a ton of people, some of my friends as well as guys I've never met. I hope they enjoyed it, but the day was refreshing to me. We didn't save anyone, get anyone into a program, or anything dramatic. We just talked and laughed some. But I felt loved and welcomed (which I know I've said before but who can have too much of those). I'm looking forward to the rest of the crazy week ahead.
Hey tranquila, el mundo no es el mismo de ayer, tu estas allí y por lo tanto no será el mismo mañana, a veces pensé en vivir en carpe diem, jajaja una filosofía que veo en mucha gente, que justifica un derroche de energias, pero al fin encontré algo mucho mas perdurable, una nueva forma, ¿Qué pasaría si esta fuera la ultima noche del mundo? Este pensamiento ha sembrado algo nuevo en mi, esperanza, si esta noche fuera la ultima quiero que Dios me vea trabajando y no desesperado. Aunque a veces estoy decepcionado y triste, de no poder hacer mas por la gente salvo escucharla y orar por ellos, TENGO ESPERANZAS EN UN DIOS VIVO QUE PUEDE CAMBIAR A LA GENTE Y LE SUPLICO QUE ME USE PARA HACER COSAS PARA SU REINO CUANDO EL LO DECIDA!!!!
ReplyDeleteCreo comprender como te sientes, pero no pierdas las esperanzas, estas en un sector súper diferente, donde cuesta mucho construir, a veces queremos cambiar las cosas pero es necesario tiempo, la vida que tiene mucha de esa gente no fue producto de una semana para otra en su gran mayoría, si no que es una suma de vivencias que pueden ser meses e incluso años,
Por lo tanto, que no te vuelva loca, la lógica del mundo, tengo tanto dinero por lo tanto puedo comprar esto, o he invertido tanto tiempo en esta persona asi que el va hacer esto, lo siento estas viendo el mundo como una relación de mercado, los hombres fallamos y si son chilenos fallamos el doble de veces que el mundo, TU TIENES AMOR POR ELLOS (CORINTIOS CAP 13). Por favor rompe la lógica del mundo aquella que no nos permite vivir con Amor, y donde trabajamos. Porque la palabra de la cruz es locura para los que se pierden pero para los que se salvan es poder de Dios.
El ultimo es un versículo de corintios
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